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"sieze the moment" what if I dont know when to seize it? what if i think i dont want to seize it and later regret it? what if i shouldnt have seized it? what if the moments gone? like long gone?

i have a thing about touching like i don't like being touched. NOT IN A FREAKY WAY just like at all by most people, some people i'm okay w it but i don't like people being overly touchy with me especially when i barely know the person like no I dont want you to hug me just cuz i see you at an event and you have to say hi to me. in fact dont say hi to me. I also hate hugs like from all people and i usually tell people that are about to hug me 'dont hug me' but if I havent seen someone for a long time or im meeting family or its someones birthday i just let it happen yk. ALSO like small touches or like ones by accident i really hate like if ur sitting next to me on the bus u do not need to be touching me if theres no space i get it nothing I can do but if ur next to me and the bus shakes or something IT IS NOT HARD TO STAY STILL and not like bump into me. or when im handing someone something dont touch my hand ikik its not something people do on purpose but it still bothers me. like dont touch me goddamn 💔💔 BUT there is a bit on irony because I do BJJ (Brazilian Jiu-Jitsu) if u dont know what it is look it up. there i'm fine with it ive been doing bjj since I was 6. I recently had to stop tho cuz i live abroad now and no place is like my old gym.

sometimes I think that i might be asexual or some sort of variant cuz i dont think of a bunch of freaky things (i say freaky jokes to my friends but i never ACTUALLY think about freaky things) like I know i've liked people before. ive been with people i like I like spending time with people and making them things. I also dont find a lot of people attractive like if a friend was like "hey that persons cute/hot/pretty/whatever" i never really get the appeal "maybe its a difference in type?" is what I thought for a while but I dont think its that. the people ive liked/been with/whatever are all different to eachother but we were ALWAYS friends first so idk what all that is called + the hating physical touch thing i've never really thought of myself as asexual or anything but ive been thinking maybe I should look into it.

I get really sad sometimes and sometimes i dont even know why im sad i just get this kinda feeling and its sooooo random too just a kinda hard hitting feeling in my chest like im missing something it doesnt really last that long but #DontBeSadForNoReason

ET this is about you if you're reading this. sooooooo STORY TIME!! ok we were just friends online not in person friends or anything (even tho we go to the same school) I really liked being friends we had similar humor most times and we sent funny posts (i sent the funnier ones) whatever. i didn't ever think we would be friends. in fact last year i didn't really like you like at all. so how did we become friends? this is my perspective on everything that happened. so from the beginning.. I think i sent you some reel that had ur name in it but i send ppl i dont rlly talk to that kind of stuff a bunch so that shit dont count. anyways we was in class right i remember both classes were together we did this weird interview activity with like an 'about me' paper that we would give to other people. you were the last person i got before we went to our next class I remember that well I begged the teacher to do one more cuz i didn't have a partner (cuz they were scheduled?? idk it was rlly weird) so then we did one more. I think if we hadnt done that one more interview thing we wouldnt have been friends. i remember talking about eddsworld u asked me about it i think I was like LITERALLY DYING ON THE INSIDE LIKE "OMG U LIKE EDDSWORLD TOO???" i didn't really say that (i think? it was a while ago) anyways i asked you "what was ur favorite eddisode?" u said u didnt remember BUT when i asked "whos ur favorite character?" u said "the red one" AND I WAS LIKE ME TOO HE'S MY FAVORITE TOO I LITERALY LOVE TORD but i didn't say that either i just said "me too" BUT ON THE INSIDE I WAS LIKE DYING ON THE INSIDE (like in a good way) and from then i was like "ok i want to be friends with ET" but then I was like "how can i talk to them? what do I do?" and for a bit i didn't really know what to do but eventually I was like i need to grow some balls so I sent some stupid sigma reel then u replied then u sent stuff back and BAM now we were friends! great!! I brought up eddsworld later on maybe a month or 2 into our friendship I pretended i didnt remember our before conversation about it cuz i dont wanna look crazy but maybe pretending to not remember is more crazy. whatever its in the past now 💀. ANYWAYSSSS u rewatched eddsworld ALL OF IT!! IN ONE NIGHT!! and like HALF OF THE COMICS!!! (which is like 200) and not too many of my friends watch all of eddsworld let alone in one night or even nother with the comics. I never really told you this but it actually meant a lot that u did allat. anywaysss fast forward to around the end of our friendship it was also 2 weeks after my birthday 😔 not sigma but anyways... I get why it'd be weird for us to be friends but I do admit I was a bit mean about it. but who leaves someone on delivered for 3 days? not me most I do is one 💀 (still bitchy ik) but anyways i started thinking about this cuz ET keeps checking my stories after like 3 months of not being friends and at first i was like ok its break maybe they're bored BUT NOOOOOOO its like every story like dawg chill ik im just too funny and my stories are too funny i get it. naw actually tho if you wanna talk just talk or smtg I aint gonna go up to u cuz ur the one that said we aint friends anymore (granted i was a tad mean right before that but hey at least I asked) like u wanna be friends again u can say it. Got something else to say? SAY IT. I never wanted to stop being friends in the first place.

people grow up grow distant and sometimes we lose friends. I get that. but if we used to be friends i will NEVER hate you like for me its hard to just stop caring about someone after being friends for a good chunk of time. now ACTING like i dont care i do that a bunch i am not a good person sometimes like it depends what kind of friend we are like if its someone ive known for a long time and i care about a lot AND most importantly send friendship posts too (thats how u know we tight) I WILL SEND PARAGRAPHS about why we should still be friends if we ever had some sort of falling out. now if its someone i care about but dont know like too too well ya i'm pretending i dont care even tho i do cuz thats just easier for everyone. I also am not usually the one to end a friendship even tho sometimes ik i should. if i think a friendship is coming to an end I'll ask if we're friends not like 'are we still friends?' cuz thats hard to say no to and i dont wanna guilt someone into being my friend when they clearly dont want to be, like i dont wanna be friends w someone that doesnt want to be my friend of is my friend because of guilt. if you (YOU the person reading this) are like "woah this is a bit specific" thats cuz that last part is.

sometimes i think about stuff and im like "what if?" y'know? like maybe if things were slightly changed a bit things would be completely different ik it doesnt help anything to think like that but sometimes i cant help it.